Resolutions and intentions

A notepad on a table reads (in a child’s handwriting) ELLA’S resolution: read more books, do more yoga

Same, girl. Same.

Everyone’s taking about resolutions and intentions for the new year and I don’t usually make any because it seems arbitrary but I guess it is a good excuse to reflect and tidy up your life so here goes.

First, a resolution – I want to read at least one (preferably nonfiction) book each month. Last year I only read about four so this is a big increase but I think it’s feasible.

Second, an intention – or maybe it’s more of a mindset shift. And to be honest I’ve already been working on it for a couple months but I’ll continue to work on this over 2020 until it takes hold.

I want to change the way I think about my body.

I often refer to it as a prison and that’s because it’s truly how it feels. I’m stuck in this thing that hurts me and limits me and controls large portions of my life.

I know that words have power though and if we change our words our thought patterns will follow so instead of a prison I will think of my body as an antique house.

There’s nothing you can do to improve a prison when you’re a prisoner inside. You’ve been defeated and you have no control. But an antique house is something you can take ownership of. You can restore the finishes, replace the broken parts, spend some money and time and effort and end up with a place that’s quirky but quite comfortable.

When I get frustrated by my pain or limitations I’ll think of this old house as needing some repair and instead of giving up and eating a bag of chips, I’ll drink some more water and do some stretches.

Instead of getting mad that I’m moving slow and then being cranky at the world, I’ll lay down and get some proper rest.

I’ll wrap myself in warm blankets. I’ll take my meds on time. I’ll investigate alternative therapies. I’ll eat healthy foods. I’ll shower more so I don’t feel gross.

I’ll do what I can to restore this old house. It’ll never be perfect but it’s mine and it will be good.

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